Category Archives: film
There was a quiet pause in our session. He was working to somehow unwrap a snack, and as I was sitting close by, talking with mom. I noticed the length of his eyelashes and an instant, that feeling of of a need to capture this made me lift my camera, focus and click. I think sometimes mom’s and dad’s worry when we take breaks in a session. I could think of lots of legitimate reasons why. Maybe one being because we are using up the valuable time you are paying for to capture everything. I get that. But I also have a great trust in the process, and I want you to too. I’ve been doing this for long enough to know that those moments when I am watching, not clicking, are when I am seeing. Noticing the details and reveling in them. The thought to heart experience is fast for me; and luckily, because kids are on the move!
So much of how I photograph you is about how I know you, so those quiet moments are never wasted moments. They are inspiration for me, and connection for us to get more intimate portraits of the most important details of your favorite people.
I know sometimes when you bring a new baby home to your other kids it can sometimes feel chaotic, trying to split attention, making sure everyone feels loved and seen. It can be a lot of pressure. I remember it well. Personally, I know, being the 2nd born of three, it can be tough for a kid too. We still have the proof (letters I wrote to my mom) of how she ruined my life. Of course, now my little sister is one of my favorite people in the world.
The funny thing is that, for me, it’s such a peaceful and relaxed experience to walk into a newborn session. I love witnessing the moments of interactions of new siblings, I love how they ask for attention, and I love to give it to them and make them feel special. I kind of get to be a fly on the wall into a really intimate experience of moments. I think that’s why I get so attached to my clients: because I’m sharing and capturing these moments with you and they are SO important. I’m witnessing the strength of your love for each other and the joy that comes from being together. I’m witnessing what brings my life energy and light: Love.
*This session was shot exclusively on film.*
I love this family. I’m so grateful I get to see them every year. This particular mom and I connect on the level of what’s most important in life. To us, it’s not things, or what we have, it’s the love in our life and the quality of that. Our kids have similar personalities, so we can support each other through the tough stuff, and marvel in the magic of the positives of their little beings. I’m always in awe of her presence as a mom. She is so attuned and accepting as things are. Can you ask for anything better in a mother? I can’t think of anything more solid as a foundation for a growing person.
This mama and I are connected at the heart level. We could spend hours on the phone pouring our hearts out. We have. Many times. It’s always such an honor to photograph her growing family knowing that she herself was a 100% film photographer before she has her gorgeous children. The fact that she would chose me blows me away and feels like a HUGE compliment. We shot a mixture of film and digital and captured some the pure preciousness of her kids really well. I loved our session so much. x
What a gift to see this boy again as he’s just 3.5 months away from hitting ONE year. I love how he’s grown into such a happy, beautiful boy. They came all the way down from Oakland for our session and I just loved our time together. Esme is such a natural mom. So in love with her baby boy. It was a joy to witness them as a family, and see Beckett getting ready to move… rolling over, putting weight into his legs, trying to communicate. It goes so fast. If only I could hold my babies again at that stage, even just for a minute. A good reminder to be right here right now. And to get photos that freeze them in time.
that’s all I really have to say about this baby and this session. I am so happy to know this family. They make pretty little princesses, and it’s such a privilege to me to photograph them. Baby Kate was an angel through her whole shoot and I had tons of fun with Emma and her BIG personality. So.much.fun. It could have been as much her session as her new baby sister’s. She was my focus so much of the time because 1. she’s adorable and 2. she needs that attention right now. It made her feel special to have a flower crown and be important and a focus for me. She was so good with the jealousy that came up for her when it was time to focus on baby sis. And we captured some precious moments between the two of them together. My favorite was when she kissed her toes. melt. Thank you for inviting me into your home and for a really nice session Van B’s.
ps. How gorgeous is mama’s hair?! Lucky girls to get that gene.
*(1st three frames are film).
One of my most favorite people on this earth is Erin Edwards. We’ve grown into a friendship together over the last 9 years, both of us learning and awkwardly changing, and now we are connected at the deepest of heart and soul levels. She understands me inside out and loves me just as I am, as I love her. I don’t think I’ve ever had such a wonderful friend in my life, other than my husband. I’m grateful beyond words to share the intimate parts of my mind and life with her. Everything I tell her is received with love and authentic understanding, no judgement, no competition, no false words of confidence just to be kind. There is also so much laughter between us, like immature teenagers divulging all the asinine craziness that goes on in our minds too. That laughter and ability to laugh at ourselves is so healing for me too. The best part of this session was the walk I got to take with Erin through the redwood grove, taking in our surroundings and breathing in that moist, fresh air before we drove away.
Photographing her family is so fun. Her children are full of personality, which I feel like we really captured in this session. They moved to Arizona over the past year, which was heart breaking for everyone, but thankfully, it didn’t effect the closeness we share. She came back to graduate from her masters program and asked me to capture her family again while she was here. I couldn’t be more honored. She requested film, so we shot film and digital (more film than digital). She’s been with me on this photography journey since it began and has left behind some very talented photographers to work with me. I know it’s not just because we are friends. She tells me always it’s because she truly loves my work and style. When anyone chooses me for that reason, then it’s always a good fit and a beautiful session, guaranteed.
Thank you for playing with me among the giant beauty of the Redwoods, Edwards Family. I love all of you and miss you already. xo