This beach. It’s saved my state of mind many a day of feeling bogged down by the monotony of life. How many days this beach has held me and warmed my skin when I needed it and refreshed my mind. Just a short, windy drive through redwood trees to the coast, and 25 minutes later, we arrive at 20th street beach. The air is a little cooler, and smells of salt water. We can see to infinity as we peek out through the trees and trek down the road to the beach. This beach. Brad brought me here in the beginning and set up a beach bonfires for us. We sat in the night, listening to waves, looking up to the stars, talking about…. everything. Now we bring our babies here. And now they get to let the ocean pull everything weighing them down out of them too, so we can all start fresh. Many times I bring my film cameras down here and take my frustrations out shooting. I don’t believe in myself enough. Sometimes I need to go there, in a mad and determined way, and say to myself “I can DO this!” to get motivated to try and possibly fail. Funny that we are all so afraid of failure, when it’s a teacher and path toward success, and in the process makes us so much more real. It’s just that ego that wants to get it right the 1st time, I guess.
Ava turned 8 on April 26th, so photographing her as she is now was my main goal. Nathan is 4 and I hadn’t shot him after his January Bday yet either, so here I am, once again practicing with medium format and 35 mm film on them. I want to shoot more film, but I still have fear to work through and many mistakes to make. My D700 feels like my 2nd right hand. I know it by heart and I know how to make magic with it. I need to remind myself that I got there and continue to get better because I’m practicing. So I’ll keep practicing. Both.
There’s just something about film though. It has an authenticity that really speaks to me. So glad it’s still here for us.
*If you want to shoot film at your session, just say the word and we can play with it too.